You are a true gem, Mar! Your tremendous talents, openness, and authenticity are so valuable and of benefit to so many of us that are inspired and encouraged by you. Thank you for being you.
Ok, thank you for keeping it so human. I do not want to live in a world where everyone is on their A-game creating with a confidence that I just don't buy in this impermanent, hard-to-pin-down, feral experience of living. It sounds like the moment was alive, and that's the thing I'm always after in life, art and relating. I especially appreciate you sharing the experience. It's so very relatable.
crying bc this touched something in me that needed affirmation, thank you for your vulnerability and reminding all of us that we're not alone in these messy contradictory emotions
I posted this as a note but meant to leave it as a comment too:
@Marlee Grace speaks to something deep inside of me with this newsletter.
It is true, I have been in hiding. Cocooning. Almost desperate, in a way that is wholly unfamiliar to me, not to be seen. I am not writing or creating or producing, and I feel a (very young and almost immature) stubbornness about not feeling pushed to do so when I don’t want to.
And yet - when I don’t write and create and produce… when I don’t show up for this calling… I feel the joy seep out of me. I feel the purpose evaporate. I feel like (as my then young daughter once said after an afternoon of yelling and screaming with her friends) “mama, my voice is running out of voice”.
I know a part of coming out of times like these is exactly as @Marlee Grace says. I must practice. I have to show up, to act as if. To do the thing i’m here to do, even if i’m not quite wanting to do it yet. I”m trying to figure out how to do that and to remain close to the part of me that is not ready, that does not want to write now. The part that is protective and closed and internal.
I have not quite figured it out. But if any of you relate to this, or to the newsletter I’m sharing below, I would so love to hear your thoughts. Have you been here? Are you still here, in the cocoon with me? Have you made it out? If you did - how did you do it?
You are a true gem, Mar! Your tremendous talents, openness, and authenticity are so valuable and of benefit to so many of us that are inspired and encouraged by you. Thank you for being you.
I NEEDED TO READ THIS SO BADLY TODAY.
Thank you from a deep deep place for sharing in the way that you do <3.
Mar, this touched me roughly. Thank you for being.
Just when I think you can’t get any more spot on and excellent, there you go, reading my mind again.
Ok, thank you for keeping it so human. I do not want to live in a world where everyone is on their A-game creating with a confidence that I just don't buy in this impermanent, hard-to-pin-down, feral experience of living. It sounds like the moment was alive, and that's the thing I'm always after in life, art and relating. I especially appreciate you sharing the experience. It's so very relatable.
Thanks Mar, really needed to hear this.
I feel the same way every time I have to share my work, thank you for sharing this words 💖
crying bc this touched something in me that needed affirmation, thank you for your vulnerability and reminding all of us that we're not alone in these messy contradictory emotions
cried through the whole thing (bawling really). thank you thank you for choosing to share this.
it felt awkward but right! thanks for reading xoxo
Gah! Being in the midst of this work with The Artist’s Way & reading this. Yes, yes. Sense of Safety, indeed. Thanks for this, Marlee.
Uhg I love you so much, crying all around
Wow, thank you, needed this, all the hearts.
glad I reshared it today <3 always nice to revisit old writing, glad it resonated :)
Wow! I really needed to hear your words today. Thank you, Mar. ❤️
So, so, so relatable -- in deep ways. Thank you for sharing, for letting it be seen. xx
Felt this. Particularly this: "I cried because the resistance to my growth hurts so much more than growing." Thanks Marlee.
I posted this as a note but meant to leave it as a comment too:
@Marlee Grace speaks to something deep inside of me with this newsletter.
It is true, I have been in hiding. Cocooning. Almost desperate, in a way that is wholly unfamiliar to me, not to be seen. I am not writing or creating or producing, and I feel a (very young and almost immature) stubbornness about not feeling pushed to do so when I don’t want to.
And yet - when I don’t write and create and produce… when I don’t show up for this calling… I feel the joy seep out of me. I feel the purpose evaporate. I feel like (as my then young daughter once said after an afternoon of yelling and screaming with her friends) “mama, my voice is running out of voice”.
I know a part of coming out of times like these is exactly as @Marlee Grace says. I must practice. I have to show up, to act as if. To do the thing i’m here to do, even if i’m not quite wanting to do it yet. I”m trying to figure out how to do that and to remain close to the part of me that is not ready, that does not want to write now. The part that is protective and closed and internal.
I have not quite figured it out. But if any of you relate to this, or to the newsletter I’m sharing below, I would so love to hear your thoughts. Have you been here? Are you still here, in the cocoon with me? Have you made it out? If you did - how did you do it?