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Yours was the first newsletter I subscribed to, first paid subscription, took your class and started my own, now have a microbusiness that pays the phone bill :) Isn't it wild to think of all the prosperity you've generated for everyone else? All these invisible partnerships? I know numbers aren't irrelevant when you're paying a mortgage, but what if there are other, invisible numbers, God's accounting? They're rising exponentially!

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Wow, this is so incredibly meaningful to read. I want to print it out and tape it to my wall. Thank you for saying so and reflecting this important aspect of my work back to me. Little tears in my eyes!

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Grateful for your honesty with us, Cody. & you know—I didn’t change my name in the last few years (‘tis been over a decade), but I did see my enrollment rates and purchases plummet to a degree that emotionally wrecked and frightened me. For me, I think it’s because of the economic instability of recent years; during the early days of the pandemic, people were hungry for online education, and now they’re financially struggling and tired of Zoom and courses. At least, that’s my hypothesis. So many of your posts on this topic, such as the one you posted in June about your “worst launch,” have really helped me to feel less alone. Thank you for everything.

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Thank you Esmé <3 It is so nice to know I am not alone in this process and other have experienced the same fear. Your writing inspired and helps me, happy to be in the spiral together.

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I truly admire and adore your work so much. Things are always changing—sometimes in a way we don’e always like!—and I was comforted by the way you wrote about responding to your fear with softness.

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I have had a strange relationship with paying subscriptions, full of judgment and projection. Reading this post today I feel humbled because probably I need to fucking get over myself a bit. You are a great writer and I am in awe of the creative way you move on the planet and honour your true creative nature. I have become a paid subscriber again today. Go to school, pay your bills, and keep being you. Love Melissa.

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Thank you for seeing that and saying so <3 And thank you for becoming a paying subscriber! It is truly a gift this is my job :)

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Thank you for sharing this. Your transparency around your successes AND "failures" and the ups and downs of being an artist continues to awe me. We love Cody, we are here for YOU, we will read, follow, and support YOU.

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I feel loved!

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Aug 12Liked by Cody Cook-Parrott

I am in a BIG dip, so thank you for this.

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Dipping together!

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Aug 12Liked by Cody Cook-Parrott

Thank you for your vulnerability & openness! I relate to so much of this. Appreciate you and your words 🫶🏼

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Thank you for saying so Ludi <3

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Yes… the deep heart wants us unraveled.. even when it’s terrifying. like that rumi line says “run from what’s comfortable… destroy your reputation” thank you for sharing your journey toward truer and and more intricate expressions of self.

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‘the dance of wanting to be witnessed and also wanting to hide’

Thank you for articulating something I too am experiencing tension around. And thank you for sharing yourself.

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Huge fan and supporter of Cody Cook-Parrott

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I've been quietly subscribed and devoted to your newsletter for the past year. I come back to your writing again and again as a huge grounding force in my own journey as an independent artist. I am in the lowest financial moment of my 20s, and I woke up this morning going through my various subscriptions, deciding what I should let go of. I haven't been active on substack for a few months, but I opened this article today and it truly brought me to tears. I am always so grateful for your transparency and vulnerability. You have a way of articulating these very human experiences with so much honesty and tenderness, that leave me filled up and inspired to keep moving through my creative life. So I just wanted to say thank you :)

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Thinking about the writer-worker-wonderer balance, seesaw, loop (WHAT DO WE CALL THIS) this week too! Always on time, always deeply grateful for your letters inviting us to continue to continue 🕯️

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